Conflict of Interest

When I was pregnant with Rayna

      What is my conflict of interest you ask?  Well let me tell you. I have  always wanted to be an avid runner. I would love to go everyday and just run for miles. My heart is in it but not my timing. Last summer I tried starting up this dream of mine. Well let's just say it did not last very long. As the days began to get hotter my motivation to run waned. I did not want to take Rayna out in the heat. 
      Guess what here it is a year later and I have attempted to become a runner multiple times. My latest adventure in running began in April. I wanted to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. So I did everything to get there. Insanity, Curves, Zumba,lifting weight with a personal trainer, Walks, Running and eventually no sugar and cutting back on carbs. This all helped me a ton! I lost a lot of weight and gained tons of muscle. I was getting closer to my goal. I really enjoyed running. Then May came along and ruined my good month of running. We all got sick with the flu. One of us was sick during the month of May(read previous blog for more details). The flu finally ruined my running streak and I stopped completely. Actually pretty much all exercise.
       Then June began. Guess what? It's the beginning of summer and my desire to run is very strong. The only difference this time is that I am pregnant. I am finding that I can only last for 10-15 min running before I feel like I am going to pee my pants(sorry this wasn't the best way to put it but the only thing I could think of).  I did not have this problem with Rayna until I was 5 months pregnant. A big difference in my book. 
Of coarse this is very discouraging to me. I just want to give up all together. I am not though. I have decided that 10-15 min run is better than nothing. I will keep trying until I can run as long as my heart desires. I am not going to give up. I will someday run a race with Jeff. A half marathon and maybe just maybe a full marathon one day(maybe if I lose my mind :)).